Current favourite song: song for ***** - bbpue
It is currently 3:15am.
On the weekdays I wake up at 7:50am to 8:00am due to me sleeping late the last night. I usually arive to my first class a few minutes late. I usually look for an uninteresting class to sleep through to get rid of my tiredness. I usually change who I hang out with during lunch time, it helps to know many people at school. I usually take the tram after school and buy snacks with my friend before going home, although I don't usually buy anything. At the tram stop, I turn my head around to look for her, but I tell myself I am just looking for people I know. I like to lie to myself sometimes, even here, but I always know what is actually going on.
I like to procratinate when I'm home. I either scroll through Instagram from 4pm to 6pm or sleep till 7pm, maybe check if she has seen the message I sent her on Soundcloud two months ago. Sometimes I get distracted and work on my music. It's always dark out when I finally begin working, no matter how much I tell myself to start working on my assignments early. Once I start working on something, I cant seem to stop. This means I usually start eating dinner at 8:00pm, when it has already gone cold. I eat dinner in my room while watching a Youtube video. Then, I procratinate a litte more before starting to do anything again. It is usually 11:00pm before I start being productive. I usually work on my assignments till 1:00am to 2:00am, then I have a wank before going to shower. Sometimes, I get hungry and look for snacks in the kitchen pantry before eating them in the bathroom like a rat. I sleep at around 3:00am. On Fridays I realise I haven't done any of my Chinese homework and rush to complete it all, and then realise it's futile. I don't think I can keep this up. Despite passing all my classes currently, I am probably going to spiral down into a pit and mess up everything.
I have Chinese class on Saturdays. I snooze my alarm a couple times before finally waking up at 8:00am. I usually skip breakfast in order to catch the tram. It feels different when I'm there even though it's at the school. It lasts for 3 hours but I have to stay back for 30 more minutes as I have exams coming soon. I hang out with the same two friends there, I get along well despite only talking to them once a week. After I get home, I eat lunch and spend most of the day doing nothing. Maybe sometimes I work on a project later in the day.
Depending on how tired I am, I like to get drunk in my room on Saturday nights. I usually put on a movie after pouring a glass of wine (10% - 11% alcohol) from the stash I have under my bed. I usually have 3 standard drinks (~350ml) before I get too drunk and tired and pass out on my bed at around 5:00am, sometimes staring at a picture of her. I wake up on Sunday anywhere between 1:00pm to 3:00pm. Occasionally, I pull my self out of my room and go outside to do something, but usually I just stay at home and hopefully work on my music or other assignments. Like the weekdays, I usually go to sleep at 2:00am to 3:00am.
Then everything repeats.
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